Sorry

Posted by Aiden Chan on April 23, 2010 in Life 生活點滴, Orange's emotion,

Tomorrow I will go back to Ipoh in the early morning…
(Actually I can back early than that but I don’t want)

Today is the last day which I stay at Kampar…
I can’t always online after today…
Can online in Ipoh then okay…
Haha… already no reason for online always…

Tomorrow I need to go back my boring but lovely home…
Too much time for staying at Kampar alone makes me feel lonely…
I’m home sick again…

Hope to be alone for a while but I’m too over…
Haha…
Whatever… good to know…

There are many things inside my mind but I never release it out…
My listener is not around me right now…

I don’t blame on others…
I am just blaming myself …
I’ m too innocent…
This is what I should pay for my innocent…

I am stupid…
I am not tough like what you know about me…
I worry about myself will be influence others…
So that I carry everything include a lie…

I thought I can control my emotion…
Unexpectedly i had been control by my emotion…

Just know is not a good way…
You will never understand about it…
Again I really think that we are come from a different world…

Actually I had thought too much…
But my emotional is like this…
I had no place for me to release it out, please just ignore what I said…

I believe in what I believe…
But it makes me get hurt deeply…

Actually I know it already…
But just blame that unable to leave from it…

Please don’t get influence by me…
I know I have no influence to you…
Actually you can no need notice me…
I know I am annoying…
Sorry about it…

I am too indulging to my emotional…
And make everything out of my control…

You say you are honestly telling me…
Actually you do not know that honest is just like a knife…
It can hurt people deeply…

You ask what you should do…
Sorry for disturbing, please use the way you used to be to treat me…
Other thing you just ignore it and I will carry all of it…
This is what I should get…

I blame myself why my memory is good…
Still remember every detail about everything things…

Said the topic which should not discuss…
Silent is the answer you give to me…

I understand it…

All this is only just for the moment…
Maybe there is some changing in the future…
Nobody knows what will be happened in the future…

I just understand what is my feeling now…

I don’t blame anyone because it is my problem…

Sorry for annoying…