Nobody

Posted by Aiden Chan on April 25, 2010 in Life 生活點滴,

Finally I come back my lovely home…
Lie on my lovely bed… hehe…
Another good way which can comfort my feeling right now…
Lie on my bed and take a nap to ignore the feeling…

I am not feeling well when I wake up in the early morning of today…
I need to say sorry to pek xin at here…
Because I had never talked with her during on the way back…
Sorry for that…

My friends say that I am damn emo recently…
I answer that I am not emo and just sad…
But nobody believes in me…
Some more my friends also asking me accept the truth…

Am I looks emo recently?

Friends who are around me also think the same way…
Friends who are not around me also think like that…

I am just less talk recently like before…
In my world there are no emo…
Rather just happy or sad…

If I am not happy right now mean that I am sad now…
No emo…

Thank you for friends who are caring me…
I’m fine now…
I just need sometimes to recover… =)

My heart feels painful when thinking of what you said to me…
Every word you said was like killing me…
Do you know it?

After chat with Wai Kheng I found out something…
I don’t know is it true or not…
But there are many reasons makes it looks true…

It is totally different with the times when you chat with me face to face…
It is the only way you response to me?

I am stupid…
Actually I know how you are since long time ago…
You don’t like to guess what other people mind thinking about…
I know you have taken certain action for certain thing…
You never talk like other people who are good in talking…
So that you taken action to compensate it…
Are you?

You have a bad temper when people talking something you didn’t like…
After that every word said by you also likes attacking people…
You like to keep everything in the original style and hope it will never change…
Are you?

I know it since long time…
But I just keep asking some stupid question to you…
Sorry about it…

You need people to take care of you but I am not the one who take care you…
I am depending and rely on you…
I am just like a kid in front of you so that I am annoying you…

My attitude and my way are annoying you… sorry…
You should tell me early about it so that I won’t do it to you…

Chat with Wai Kheng makes me feel better after that…
Friends, I hope I can cheer up but the feeling is not easy to control…

As what you prefer to other treat it to you…
I just let you know that what I am thinking about…

I am get hurt because of what you said to me…
I never happy because of it…
If you ask why I will be like this then you should think about what you had said to me…
Any words I also remember…

I tell you that your first answer of any question I ask you also hurt me although you had explained after it…
Just let you know why I am thinking like that…

You know that it is a cold word but you keep reply me that…
You said that this is my style and you had experience on it…
So that this mean it is only way to reply me? Does it?

Because of you personal message I started find you to chat and ask what happened…
I am worry about am I influence to you so that I ask you about it and explain to you…
Worry about you will not asking other or me any question…
So that I msn you and so on…

But I am stupid…
What I get at last was I hurt myself…

After I bath I find you because I worry just now the TALK will influence you…
But you just say I am not influence you at all and I am not like him can influence you a lot…
What you can’t just say you’re fine or never mind or something like that?
Why you need to compare me with him? If not why you need said it?

I know that you are just telling me the truth…
You are right of telling the truth…
You had done nothing wrong…
But I am just get hurt of it…

I know you are mad so that you will answer like this…
I know this is your way but do you know it hurts me?

You said you know my way, sure?
I care about everything other said…

Every times I am worry about it will influence you so that I do not have say much…
So that I just say nothing…
But you never know it…
For sure because I am nobody like I had said before…
I had no influence to you…

Last time you said that I am not nobody…
Are you sure?

I don’t think so for right now…
Because you said something a person can’t accept in any situation…

I know that you had changed…
I realize that actually you are in changing in certain way…
But I am just stupid and say something which you are sensitivity to it…

I know you are not that mean…
But I really feel sad when hear it…

“你对我没有影响力”…

But you are influencing me a lot…

I remember everything you said to me…
I had followed your style said anything to you…
And fulfill your principle which is just want to know…

So I let you know it…

It is not a big deal but I really get hurt…

I am nobody…