Chance

Posted by Aiden Chan on April 06, 2010 in

I’m always in a dilemma situation…
Actually hope to do like that but didn’t do it…

Always act like nothing but actually care it so much…
Am I stupid?

I think so…

I say that should be respected to myself and my feeling…
What am I doing right now?
Different with what I say…
Ish…

Hate myself so much right now…
If everything can be return back I will choose what I want…
But I know that It will never happened again…

Once a chance lost it will never come back…

Understand what the theory mean but don’t apply in life…
I hate myself why can be so stupid like this…
Ish…

Hope to escape from this feeling but can’t…
It follows me go everywhere I being…
It is disturbing my mood and my emotional…

I had nothing else to say right now…

The feeling influence my decision making and everything about myself…
I hate it…

Fxxk off and far away from me…
I am freaking anger about it…
I should control myself and leave from it…

My self control is weak than past time…
It is damn annoying…

I blame myself why I make a GOOD decision…
Stupid person I am…

I am just release my feeling…
Nothing else happened to me…
And I am not in a emo mood…
So no need worry about me…

Lastly I just want to say…

Chance was only appear one time…

Pay attention on what you care…