Sensitive

Sensitive

Posted by Aiden Chan on April 27, 2010 in

Finally I had made a decision for it…
And it was passed…

I think no one will believe in me If I say that I am 100% fine…
Haha…
But is okay for now…
I really feel better than last time…

Really like what you said…
I am too sensitive…
I admit that I am…

I admit that I was thought too much on it…
Well, I am too sensitive with it because I care it…
So that I taking action first to it…
Whatever, it already passed… =)
And sorry for annoying again…

Like what we had said…
It will never happen if we chat face to face…
If I not mistaken we never argue before…
haha…

I found out many factors makes it happened…
Next time only discuss with you… haha…

You said you never get used to it…
Haha… oh I see…
Then I trust whatever you said to me…

After chat with you I had figure out many things…
But can’t discuss or chat with you in msn…
As what you said…
Word misconstrued the meaning…
It different with what we mean…
So when we meet then only discuss about it…
(If not will get scold again =P)

And also there is some answer in my mind right now…
I had found out something from our conversation…
Maybe it was temporary and may change in the future…
But I am for sure this is the answer for right now… haha…

Sorry for can’t tell you right now…
For sure one day I will tell you all these things at the right time… =)
Don’t worry about it, is not like what you are thinking… xD
(Actually I also don’t know what you are thinking when read it =P)

And now I want to tell Klosen also…
Said me don’t trust you in Facebook there… =.=
What the… wait you back only chat and fight for it…
Haha… awaiting… xD

Again, I don’t believe in everyone because there have a “lie” inside the word…
But I trust everyone including you… =)
So don’t worry about it… haha…
Then I wait you back…

Ab, just now went to your blog…
Seem like you are unhappy recently… (Fishy also)
But cheer up my friends… =)
We all cheer together… xD

There are no fairly tale will happen in our life until we meet the right person…
Life is like a drama… anything will be happen in our life…
No fix scenario for our life and we just can direct to act…

Everything decided by us…
So that we should being the main character on it…
We can being our true prince and princess also… xD

So cheer up, think positive and think deeply…
Actually we already in a fairly tale just that we do not realize… =)
For example like you already meet someone who you care more and care about you more… =)
(I think you know who I said, “HE” in your post)

So cheer up my friends =)
(Fishy also, enjoy your healthy life style… xD)

I suggest you that listen to the song of my lovely S.H.E new album [SHERO]…
Those are some song about cheer up girls…
It may help you to go through of it… =)
I listen it and get something from it… haha…
(I know I’m not a girl but you all know that… haha…)
(Get used to it =P)

I really have much things want to share with you…
I think we will talk nonstop when we met up…
Haha… xD

I had gone through on many things recently…
And it likes giving me a lesson of life…
It also is a challenge to me…
But I think I can pass it and I had wake up from it…
Haha…
This is the result of out of self-control… xD
But it’s fine now… =)

Just as usual what I had done for my post…
I always put a quotation which related to the post...
For sure created by me… xD

This quotation is related to this post…
But you all may be not able to get the mean of it and the reason…
Haha… whatever, just think it in positive way… =)

If you are destined to lose, then you still fight for what?

Learn from experience…

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Force a smile

Force a smile

Posted by Aiden Chan on April 26, 2010 in

I am in holiday now but I am not in the holiday mood…
Always stay at home alone…
No one talk with me makes me think too much…
The feeling come to me again…
I thought it wills not depth anymore during these 2 days…
But I am wrong…

The feel tight in the chest…
Maybe you feel nothing…
I hope I can just like you seem like nothing to you…
But I am not being used to it…

Thinking the same issue everyday…

Met my ji mui today…
She looks unhappy also…
Nothing can do for her just can say that cheep up my ji mui…
(I know I am the one in the same way also)
(I can’t cheer up but you should, gah you ^^)

Thinking much during these 2 days…
I am too over about it…
But I really care about it so much…

My emotional is conflict with my intellect…
Should or should not?
No one can answer me… (Because I also don’t know the answer)

I hope to return back to last time…
I am too optimistic and believe in my way again…
But I can’t do it because you already said that I am annoying…

Accept the truth is a hard mission…

Ab, I really have a lot things want talk to you…
But we are not in the right place and right time now… ish…
I can’t online always can’t chat with you…
(I dislike msn chat also)
(I prefer face to face)

I am not tough like past self…
Hope to scream it out now…
Hope to go somewhere to travel for relaxing…
But I do not have much money for it…

My handphone’screen gone again…
(Don’t ask me buy new one)
(I am also dying to buy new one but not much money to buy it.)

Announce at here…
Friends, if you want to find me please call me…
Please do not text me cause I can’t see it…
Thank you… ^^

Return back to what I had written before…

Wait a minute…
(Breathe deeply)

Thinking, thinking, I’m thinking…
Okay… won’t be a stupid anymore…
A fool may give a wise an counsel…

Opps… thank you to my ah di Eric…
Thank you for caring me and keep asking me on what happened to me…
I am nothing… (Who believe in that I’m fine? See what I had written =.=)
Haha…

I am okay for now…
Still can prop up this situation and the feeling… ^.^
You can don’t believe in me because there is a word “lie” inside…
But you can trust me… =P

I should make a decision for it…
I can’t just let myself being like this way…
My style is doing what I hope to do… =P

But I still want to write down my feeling right now…
Last but not least and it still in my mind…

It is still hurt in my heart…

It is nothing to you…

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Nobody

Nobody

Posted by Aiden Chan on April 25, 2010 in Life 生活點滴,

Finally I come back my lovely home…
Lie on my lovely bed… hehe…
Another good way which can comfort my feeling right now…
Lie on my bed and take a nap to ignore the feeling…

I am not feeling well when I wake up in the early morning of today…
I need to say sorry to pek xin at here…
Because I had never talked with her during on the way back…
Sorry for that…

My friends say that I am damn emo recently…
I answer that I am not emo and just sad…
But nobody believes in me…
Some more my friends also asking me accept the truth…

Am I looks emo recently?

Friends who are around me also think the same way…
Friends who are not around me also think like that…

I am just less talk recently like before…
In my world there are no emo…
Rather just happy or sad…

If I am not happy right now mean that I am sad now…
No emo…

Thank you for friends who are caring me…
I’m fine now…
I just need sometimes to recover… =)

My heart feels painful when thinking of what you said to me…
Every word you said was like killing me…
Do you know it?

After chat with Wai Kheng I found out something…
I don’t know is it true or not…
But there are many reasons makes it looks true…

It is totally different with the times when you chat with me face to face…
It is the only way you response to me?

I am stupid…
Actually I know how you are since long time ago…
You don’t like to guess what other people mind thinking about…
I know you have taken certain action for certain thing…
You never talk like other people who are good in talking…
So that you taken action to compensate it…
Are you?

You have a bad temper when people talking something you didn’t like…
After that every word said by you also likes attacking people…
You like to keep everything in the original style and hope it will never change…
Are you?

I know it since long time…
But I just keep asking some stupid question to you…
Sorry about it…

You need people to take care of you but I am not the one who take care you…
I am depending and rely on you…
I am just like a kid in front of you so that I am annoying you…

My attitude and my way are annoying you… sorry…
You should tell me early about it so that I won’t do it to you…

Chat with Wai Kheng makes me feel better after that…
Friends, I hope I can cheer up but the feeling is not easy to control…

As what you prefer to other treat it to you…
I just let you know that what I am thinking about…

I am get hurt because of what you said to me…
I never happy because of it…
If you ask why I will be like this then you should think about what you had said to me…
Any words I also remember…

I tell you that your first answer of any question I ask you also hurt me although you had explained after it…
Just let you know why I am thinking like that…

You know that it is a cold word but you keep reply me that…
You said that this is my style and you had experience on it…
So that this mean it is only way to reply me? Does it?

Because of you personal message I started find you to chat and ask what happened…
I am worry about am I influence to you so that I ask you about it and explain to you…
Worry about you will not asking other or me any question…
So that I msn you and so on…

But I am stupid…
What I get at last was I hurt myself…

After I bath I find you because I worry just now the TALK will influence you…
But you just say I am not influence you at all and I am not like him can influence you a lot…
What you can’t just say you’re fine or never mind or something like that?
Why you need to compare me with him? If not why you need said it?

I know that you are just telling me the truth…
You are right of telling the truth…
You had done nothing wrong…
But I am just get hurt of it…

I know you are mad so that you will answer like this…
I know this is your way but do you know it hurts me?

You said you know my way, sure?
I care about everything other said…

Every times I am worry about it will influence you so that I do not have say much…
So that I just say nothing…
But you never know it…
For sure because I am nobody like I had said before…
I had no influence to you…

Last time you said that I am not nobody…
Are you sure?

I don’t think so for right now…
Because you said something a person can’t accept in any situation…

I know that you had changed…
I realize that actually you are in changing in certain way…
But I am just stupid and say something which you are sensitivity to it…

I know you are not that mean…
But I really feel sad when hear it…

“你对我没有影响力”…

But you are influencing me a lot…

I remember everything you said to me…
I had followed your style said anything to you…
And fulfill your principle which is just want to know…

So I let you know it…

It is not a big deal but I really get hurt…

I am nobody…

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Sorry

Sorry

Posted by Aiden Chan on April 23, 2010 in Life 生活點滴, Orange's emotion,

Tomorrow I will go back to Ipoh in the early morning…
(Actually I can back early than that but I don’t want)

Today is the last day which I stay at Kampar…
I can’t always online after today…
Can online in Ipoh then okay…
Haha… already no reason for online always…

Tomorrow I need to go back my boring but lovely home…
Too much time for staying at Kampar alone makes me feel lonely…
I’m home sick again…

Hope to be alone for a while but I’m too over…
Haha…
Whatever… good to know…

There are many things inside my mind but I never release it out…
My listener is not around me right now…

I don’t blame on others…
I am just blaming myself …
I’ m too innocent…
This is what I should pay for my innocent…

I am stupid…
I am not tough like what you know about me…
I worry about myself will be influence others…
So that I carry everything include a lie…

I thought I can control my emotion…
Unexpectedly i had been control by my emotion…

Just know is not a good way…
You will never understand about it…
Again I really think that we are come from a different world…

Actually I had thought too much…
But my emotional is like this…
I had no place for me to release it out, please just ignore what I said…

I believe in what I believe…
But it makes me get hurt deeply…

Actually I know it already…
But just blame that unable to leave from it…

Please don’t get influence by me…
I know I have no influence to you…
Actually you can no need notice me…
I know I am annoying…
Sorry about it…

I am too indulging to my emotional…
And make everything out of my control…

You say you are honestly telling me…
Actually you do not know that honest is just like a knife…
It can hurt people deeply…

You ask what you should do…
Sorry for disturbing, please use the way you used to be to treat me…
Other thing you just ignore it and I will carry all of it…
This is what I should get…

I blame myself why my memory is good…
Still remember every detail about everything things…

Said the topic which should not discuss…
Silent is the answer you give to me…

I understand it…

All this is only just for the moment…
Maybe there is some changing in the future…
Nobody knows what will be happened in the future…

I just understand what is my feeling now…

I don’t blame anyone because it is my problem…

Sorry for annoying…

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Understand

Understand

Posted by Aiden Chan on April 21, 2010 in Life 生活點滴, Orange's emotion,

I had found out something recently…
It not a big duel but only a small problem…
But it makes me want to think more about it…

What mean understand?

If you ask someone about it they will answer…

“Understand? It is something which you know about a person like what he want to do about certain thing.”
“You will know what the person will do in which situation.”

Is this mean understand?
I’m interested on this issue recently…

How do you understand about a person?
Is it understood from your observation of this person?
Or the person tells you about what he/she is?

Does it mean that the person does not understand other well If the observation of a person is weak?

Human being likes to be this way…
When there are something happened to them…
They will say nothing…

When others do not pay attention or keep asking about it…
They will to be in sulk…

At the last they just hope others can guess about the problem and care about them…

But do you know what will the others think about it?
The others will think you are crazy and they are not the one who lives in your mind…
How does them know what are you thinking right now?

This is fact…
Many people don’t pay attention on it…

Do you think that before if you can guess what the problem of the person correctly…
The happiness of the person is more than he or she say…

Don’t simply perfunctory other…
You make hurt the person deeply but you don’t know…

Recently I just realize that I’m not easy to understand like what I think for…
Feel that I am complicated…
Actually I am as simple as it…
Haha…

I don’t want be emo…
But there are many factors make be turn into it…

I forgot about my own duty…
Cross to the boundary of my duty and it increase the burden of mine…

Just realize that actually you do not understand me well…
And feels that you and me are totally different…
I try to find out the similar between us but cant…

Last I only know that both of us come from different world…

Maybe all of these were just temporary…
Maybe it will change in the future when we talk again… =)
I feel like this way for now…

Understand a person well is not an easy mission…

Observation is one of the ways for understanding a person…

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