Disconnect

Posted by Aiden Chan on September 20, 2010 in

I am still in the holidays so that I can’t online always as I like…
Firstly I want to say thank you to Wai Hong…
Without him I can’t online for the whole night…
By the way, also given me a chance to change the background of my blog and update it…
Haha…

Have a chat with Mun Mun yesterday night…
Chat till the line disconnect…
When I get back, she was appearing offline already… lol… haha…

Started conversation like usually what we do…
She said that I look emo through read my blog…
I feel a bit surprise for it…
Am my blog post look emo? Haha…
She keeps saying that feel like I am unhappy with my life recently…
I answer that not so, and I am just in the process of growing up, just think much only…

My best friend Veronica Karwai sends me a message through facebook…
She intro a Chinese book named …
She said that this book make help me in my recently life…
Well, I will go search for it… thank you =)
And also have a little chat with her…
Like what usually we chat about and encourage each other…haha…
Thank you for remember me what I told you last time…
And thank you for cheer me up…
Actually I feel pretty happy on that day when I met you in jusco…
Although we had no chat at all and just clap my hand…
But I really feel pretty happy at the moment… haha…

Well, thank you to you all for caring me…
Actually I am not emo, just in the situation of dilemma on something…
Thinking more and more is what usually we do when we growing up…
I really can’t impudicity myself like last time, and this makes me be what I am today…
I am the kind of person who likes to think much…

[Me + think too much + the process of growing] = [Think more than last time]

I will be think more and more than last time for now… xD

No worries, I won’t let myself down and as you know that, I am a member of anti-emo… =)
Certain thing for sure will not change at all although many things had changed…
You are what you are now and I am still the one...
I am still the one who called “Orange” and optimism always… =)
(Ab sham you should remember this point, haha…)

Have a nice chat with Ab through handphone and msn…
Feel like long time never meets her…
I had lot of things want to share with her, that’s why we chat non-stop when I can online…
She told me about what they doing now, how are them recently, what are their feeling…
I am listening to it, analyzed it, give comment on it and I answer it…
Love the way of conversation…
At least I still can chat with someone else… =)

Have an msn chat with timmy also…
Using the way which I be used to…
Seem like different version from what I heard from others…
I don’t know about it…
Is not to judges who say the original version…
Different people have different mean of it…
I just can’t feel the tone of the voice and all things of the person who I talking to…
May be I get different of version through this…

MSN is one of the good software to let people communicate, easy and important that it is free of charge…
However, word can’t tell the exactly meaning which a person wants to say so…
Without original tone of voice, emotion and other we can’t exactly know what in the person mind actually…

That’s why I always prefer talk face to face than msn or sms…
Maybe you’re crying but you told me you’re happy through msn…
Maybe you’re nothing but I think that you’re in an anger mood through msn…
This will happen because we like think individual and guess by self…
And last will end with a worst situation…

Well, anything I will only chat with you when meet you if I still remember what I want to chat… haha… xD

You asked me that what I unhappy for…
I just dislike other to help me make a decision without informing me at all…
I can blame myself if I make a wrong decision…
At least I can escape a chance to angry my friends from it…
Don’t think that everything will always to be same…
Everything is always in changing… you also knowing that…
Anywhere, others we only talk when meet…
I may take it too serious, but this is who I am and I take serious on everything…
Sorry for annoying, you can just ignore it…

Long time never online, this makes me feel like disconnect with my friends…
Waiting the others plan and arrange for me…
Waiting for the feedback from others…
Actually I’m not being used to it, anywhere, whose care?

Many unlucky things happened recently, but I still have hanged out with friends but less…
Don’t know why I will feel like no connection with the world and everything… sweat…
Haha… I think that I am over thinking again…

However, I love the way like do nothing at home alone…
Alone sitting in the house, no Internet connects to outside world…
Turn on the television, play NDS game and listen to music…
This is what called Home Boy life style…
I love it so much although it is a bit lonely… xD

Listen music alone and think alone…
Think more and more, by the way I will also grow up more and more…
Have different point of view on everything…

However it not means that I am mature for all the time…
I am not wise man and I am just a normal person who likes to think much only…
I will also being selfish and willful sometimes…
I will be only like that in front of certain people only…

Like what I saw from Klosen blog…
I saw it in somewhere before and I love it too…

“Don’t judge a book by its cover”

It is meaningful…
Don’t judge a person’s mind by how his or her look…
As we know that, human being always in the changing process…
Silent does not mean no idea at all…
Voice out also not mean that your idea will be get use…

If want to know more about yourself…
You can look at how the other person’s response to you…
You may be not able to get it If you’re the person like me who egoism…
Because you deny on what other say to you…

“Ego” is a way which can keep the most original of you…
Lack of “Ego” will make you lost your confidence…
Over “Ego” will make you lost your friends and your image…

So everything not to overdo it…
We can blame nobody if we overdo it…

Opps, write too much of it and it is another long post again… haha… xD
Sorry for it and thank you for reading… =)

There are too many of things waiting me to accomplish…
My laziness makes me stop from all of it…
Well, is good to me also…
It giving me a chance to impudicity for a while…

I enjoy of being alone now…

Lonely not that bad actually…