Worry

Posted by Aiden Chan on September 13, 2010 in

I had long time never updated my blog by using Chinese Language…
This post supposes to be written in Chinese…
I try to translate it into English… (Please forgive me if wrong)
You can go to another blog wretch if you understand Chinese…
My Chinese was better than my English actually… xD

here the link... =)
My Blog (Chinese)

Long time never updated my blog by using Chinese language…
Familiar language but with a strange feeling right now…

How long time I never updated blog by using Chinese language…
I had forgotten already…

Give up to something which I love because of certain issue…
Is this what I actually wanted at first?

Nobody knows the answer but me…

I had changed a lot recently…
Is not saying that I am not original anymore…
Just more than what I original own right now…

Human being always changes their mind when come to a period of time…
You tell me that you are what you are right now and yet you said you never change before…
And I am asking you a question now…

Are you sure that this is the original yourself?
Do you have changed compare to past self?
Please think about it and answer me again…

Human being always likes to tell the other about themselves…
We are original as what they are last time…
But they never know that they had in the process of “changing”…

Experience in certain situation, certain external issue, mission given by self…
The original self plus what I had mentioned above…
So that we are only what we are right now…

“Innocent” is a naturally issue which inborn with us…
“Mature” is an issue which we use innocent to exchange…

To be mature we need to put away our innocent and judge anything by rational…
When a person being more and more mature, automatically the person will be not innocent anymore…

I can’t exactly express my feeling through written in English…
This is because I still not be used to that way…

I am closer with a gang of friends recently…
I am happy because I found back something which I lost long time ago…
Crazy idea and crazy things come to me Just like past time…
However it was a bit different with last time…

I’m not the one who crazier anymore…

Crazy idea brings “worry” come to me at the same time…
I’m over thinking, worry too much at all…
I will be like this way, is it because of I am not innocent like past self anymore?

I know more about myself more when I stick with this gang of friends…
I’m that kind of person who can’t exactly put away everything and just do it…

I can’t put away everything and just do whatever I want to do…

I had crazy with friends before…
I had work on my crazy idea before…
I had been innocent before…

But I am no more like that right now…
Is it this is the cost of being more mature?

I miss the crazier myself…
I miss the time when I work on my crazy ideas with my friends…
I miss the innocent myself…

Am I being more and more mature to think too much?
Or I am just being more and more cowardly?

Cowardly is not my trademark…
I hate myself right now…

To my friends, please don’t worry about me…
I am just express the feeling in my mind right now…
I really feel pretty happy when go out with you all…
I just realize on something at this time only…
Sorry for trouble on you all…

Although I had been changed be like this right now…
I still keep something original of mine till today…

“Optimism” is the only issue which I keep until right now… =)

I’m okay right now and this is me…
I am just in the process of changing…
I will be okay…

And for sure I will slim down in these holidays… xD
I am still who I am right now although I am in a process of changing…
Something will be not changing forever… =)

Maybe “Optimism” Is the only way to keep my “innocent” with me…
As usual what I always do…

Last but not least…

Just do whatever you want to do right now…

You will not regret in the future…