Farewell

Posted by Aiden Chan on May 16, 2010 in

Now is 1.47am…
I just finish package my things for going back to Kampar tomorrow…
Today is the last day of my holiday for semester three…
I want to write about something like conclusion for my holiday…

There are many things happened on me during these holidays…
Some things made me feel pretty happy…
I never feel this way before…

For sure some things made me feel freaking sad…
It is also what I never feel before…

And all of it influences me a lot…
It changes my mindset and my attitudes…

What a special holiday to me…
I never thought that it was a meaningful and penetrating holidays…

I had cry during this holiday…
I had felt warm during this holiday…
And I also look clear on everything which around me and follow me for long time ago…

I am a fool…

Always think about something will not happen…
And wishing it will come true…
I had forgotten dream is something which not comes true…

I am a fool…

I thought I can handle it properly when it comes true…
But the fact was everything out of my control…
And I am just can do nothing for all of it…

I think I can leave the dream which you created for me…
Actually you had done nothing to me but I am just over thinking…
I know what the situation it is but I just don’t dare to face it…
Optimism made me lives in a hard way right now…

I thought I already accept the fact you given but not…
I am a fool…

I am thinking of you when I am alone…
But no one knows about it…

I am thinking of my friends when I am crying…
But no one knows about it…

I think that I will cry in front of my friends…
But nope and I can’t do it…

Kok Chun, last time I told you that I will only cry in front of my ji mui right?
Now I just realize that I can’t cry in front of everyone…
Like what you be used to…

I will only cry during nobody around me… =)

It should not be an emo post I know…
Well, started on next week I will be DPR year2 student… =)

Yup, you’re right…
I can promote to year2 and being the senior… =)
Although I had failed my psychology but I satisfy with my result…

I never feel sad for my psychology failed…
I know what the reason make it and this is my false…
I should blame nobody…=)

CGPA was drop and I hope to bring it up during this new semester…
I know it was hard but I had no choice…
I should learn from the mistake which I created…

God please bless me that I can achieve my entire objective… =)

Leaving home again and like what I usually am…
Home sick always follow me go to anywhere…
It never leaves me behind…
I know that I can come back every week…
But I really miss my mother a lot… =(

Is time to return back my college life…
I am not waiting to meet up my college friends right now…
I think I will talk much with them… =)

Well, my holidays officially ended…
And is time to get what I want…

Preparing a farewell party for the past self…
Welcome the present self… =)

“Should or should not” is only depending on how you want to be…

There are no excuses… =)