Honest

Posted by Aiden Chan on March 15, 2010 in

I don’t know what I should say…
I don’t know what I actually need…
I don’t know what I actually want…

I don’t know how to describe the feeling now…
I don’t know what I am doing right now…
I don’t know who I am…

I never feel this way since long time ago…
It comes to me again…
It goes thought my body and my brain…
It hurts me…

I never feel this way since long time ago…
Because no one can hurt me like this way…
I know that this is not your fault…
But it really hurt me actually…

Honest just like a knife sometimes…
It can save people from lie…
But it also can hurt people deeply…

I’m crying…
My eyes feel pain now…
It reminds me that I didn’t cry since long time ago…
Tear drop on my pillow when I am sleep on my bed…

I don’t know what in my mind actually…
I don’t know what I hope…

I am weak than past time…
Never control the emotion…
And let it trouble myself…

I know that this is not your fault…
You just say what in your mind and what actually you think…
And I just can ignore it when I hear it…

But I can’t…

This is my problem not you…
Don’t blame yourself about it…

And this is the point I should face also in the future…
Maybe will tell by others…

But I just get hurt because it telling by you…

I just want to release my feeling at here because this is the only way to release it…
I should be alone right now…
Hope to be alone now…

Maybe this is the most suitable way for me…
I am alone at all actually…

My friends…
I am fine and I just hope to release my feeling…
Please don’t ask me about it…
I don’t want to talk about it…

Sorry my friends…

I don’t know what I want to say now…
I can’t find out what I want actually…
I don’t want to talk with you now…
Maybe it will make me feel better…
Just know something which is…

Please leave me alone for a while…

Honest kill people sometime…