Full Love^^

Full Love^^

Posted by Aiden Chan on March 28, 2010 in

Feel full of love recently…
It is another type of love…
It called “Friend love”…

I feel full of friends love recently… ^^
And also I am busy with my friends recently…

Busy with Kitty because of assignment…
(Next week is the deadline)

Thank you being the model…
I think this is the first time you feel that assignment is hard to do…
Just because of me…

Thank you to fishy also…
(I know you will says “again”. =P)
Haha…
I know that you say welcome and nothing…
But I just want say thank you to you at here again… xD

Busy with leaving comments to my friend Klosen...
To cheer up and tell him what I think…
Just now went to read his blog…
Only realize that he was testing my response… ish…
Makes me worry about it few day… ish…

But you are fine now…
This is good also… =P

I have thought so much recently…
I always thought too much… =P

Finding out a lot of views on certain issue…
Hard to tell at here because my English is not that good like others…
I try to write it out on the others post in the future… =P
Sorry for that…

First time stay alone at Kampar without housemate Lewis…
He always at Kampar although I am not staying there for weekend…
But nothing had happened…
Luckily no cockroach appears at this time… thank god…

I had taken a lot of photos for our assignment…
Just now I count it, oh my god…
Totally taken 352 photos…

I am not going to show it at here…
Will only show when we pass up our assignment…
Sorry for it… xD

Here are some words for Kitty:

I know that I am annoying and keep saying the same thing…
But I still want to say it to you…

Thank you for being the model although it is hard to be…
We take photos under the sun…
I know you are sunburn already but you just hope to continue it…

Sorry for I am not a good photographer…
Waste lot of your time and just can get some good photos…

Thank you for cooperate with me…
Moving your bed position for take photo…
Change different cloths for taking good photo…

Thank you for all of it…

My assignment will not like right now if I am partner with others…
Because no one will rush with me like right now…

I know it is annoying but I just want to say it…

Thank you Kitty…
Being my assignment partner… ^^

And I am being annoying again…
The next person I want to thank you is Fishy.. xP

Here are some words for Fishy:

I know that you sure said that I am annoying because of keeps saying thank you…
But it is something I really want to say so…

Actually we are just know and being friends but seem like we already know each other since long time ago…

Thank you for helping us for being our photographer …
Although you say that you are just go play around…
But the photos you had taken for us were better than what I had taken…
And it really is what we want…

Thank you Fishy… ^^

I want to thank you my best friend/Ji mui, Kar Wai and Mang Chean…

Here are some words for Kar Wai:

Thank you for borrow me the entire kitty product…
I am happy because you borrow me all the kitty products without the least hesitation…
Thank you… ^^

Here are some words for Mang Chean:

Thank you for borrow me the jacket although I didn’t use it…
Same like kar wai…
Borrow me the thing without the least hesitation…
Thank you and I am happy because of you… ^^

I feel freaking relax recently compare to past time…
I am really following my quotation of my blog…

An Orange a day, keep the EMO away… ^^

No Emo around me right now…
I am happy because of my friends…
And I had thought deeply about it…
And it really makes me feel better…

Think too much is my characteristic…
And I am being used to it…
And I like it also… =P

Last but not least…

Leave your sadness on yesterday…

Tomorrow is another new day…

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Sorry but Thank you ^^

Sorry but Thank you ^^

Posted by Aiden Chan on March 24, 2010 in

Seem like long time didn’t updated my blog…
Now is the time to update it…

I am sick now…
Don’t know what happened to me…
Don’t know why suddenly will be like this…

I still have presentation and midterm test today…
Luckily pass all of it by nothing bad happened…

I have no study for my test…
The result of it should be worst when it return to me…
Sick at the wrong time…
Ish…

Firstly I want to say Sorry to my group mates…
Ab and Kelvin Bar…

Sorry for I am not done good in my presentation and my assignment…
I have done nothing for our assignment…

Sorry for it…

I know I am worst although you all have said nothing and still giving good comment for my presentation…

Sorry for not putting more effort on our assignment…

This is my first time done nothing for my assignment…
I had trouble both of you…
Sorry…

Hope next time I will same group with both of you again…
And I will do as much as I can…

Sorry for that…

On the other hand I also want to tell something to Kitty…
I don’t you will come here or not…

Sorry for our assignment…

I know you are worrying can we finish it at time…
I had waste your time too much…
And now I need you to rush with me…

Sorry for annoying…

Other groups already started to do their EP assignment…
But our group had done nothing just because of me…

And I just make thing be complicated…
We can do it by using easy way like download from Internet…
But I just keep preserve in shoot photo and so on…

Sorry for make thing be complicated…
Hope you don’t mind it…

I am not Emo mood…
Just feel sorry to my friends…
Don’t worry about me…
I am just physical sick not mind sick…

I am not in Emo mood…
You should remember I am ANTI Emo kaki…
Although I am Emo sometime but less…

By the way also want to say thank you to all of you…

Thank you to Ab…
Thank you to Kelvin Bar…
Thank you to Kitty…

I had done nothing for our assignment but all of you just act like nothing…
Don’t have blame on me…

Thank you for accepted me be your friends and be your group mates…
I will try my best again in our assignment next time…
And of cause for now…

Sorry but also thank you to you all… =)

Nothing has to say but…

A friend is a gift for our life…

Friends forever…

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Worst

Worst

Posted by Aiden Chan on March 21, 2010 in

I am feeling tired to me recently…
I am useless…

I feel that I am annoying to everyone who around me…
Trouble my friends…
And make my friends live in a hard way…

Sorry about that…

I don’t know what happened to me…
I never have been like this way before…

I am weak to control myself compare to past self…
What happened to me?
I can’t get the correct answer right now…

Not in mood to study…
Not in mood to do assignment although presentation is coming soon…
Not in mood of doing everything…

Sorry for disturbing…

I am freaking annoying recently…
Always rely on others…
And never care about other people’s feeling…
They are no responsibility to let me rely on…

Sorry for that…

I am too indulging my emotional…
Let it spoil my mood…
And make my friends worry about me…

Sorry for that…

I am a stupid…
Never done a good thing before…
Only know how to make thing be worst…
Ish…

I hate myself...

Am I too silly sometimes?
I think so…

Never control my emotional and let it spoil other people’s mood…

Sorry about it…

I have nothing else can say already…
I am worst and useless…

I never control myself at all…
When I will be return to the one who can solve problem easily?
I can’t figure out the answer…

I am childish now…
Hope everything will be fine and go back into the way before…
God bless me…

Emotional obscure everything…

I am useless…

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Steamboat ^^

Steamboat ^^

Posted by Aiden Chan on March 20, 2010 in

Well…
Now I want to write about that day we went to Ipoh for steamboat…
Haha…

I know it happened since long time ago…
But now I only updated about it…
Hehe…

Because I’m not free to update last time…
Hehe…
(Actually I am lazy to write =P)

I still remember we went to Ipoh on Tuesday…
I forgot about the reason of steamboat…
Celebrate something but I can’t recognize now…
(I had short term memory =P)

Whatever…
Haha…

We went to ipoh after class…
(If I not mistaken xD)
(Now only realize that my memory so weak =.=)

We went to jusco first for certain reason… xD
The reason is to buy a doll for me…
Haha…

Thank you to my friends for bought the dolls for my birthday present…

Nick…
Ab…
Joyi…
Ah Yan…
Kelvin Bar…
Koh…
Jun Hao…
Victor…

Thank you for the present…
I am dying to have a doll during my birthday since long time ago…
Now is the first time I get it…
I am freaking happy about it…
Hehe…
Thank you very much… ^^

We do what we usually will do…
Take photo… xD
Seem like we never come to jusco before… xD
And taking photo with my present…
Haha…
We went to “TAN SAI GAI” for steamboat… Actually this is my first time go there…

Wait…
Don’t look at me by this kind of eyes… ==
Every time steamboat also stays at home one…
Less chance to have steamboat at outside…
That’s why I never went to there…

Return to the topic…

When we arrived there…
The rain comes together with us…
It is too bad for us…
We decide to sit outside because of raining we move in…
(Damn hot you know… ==)

Whatever…
At least can eat then I don’t mind… XD
(Eat important than everything for me)
By the way do you see people wear jacket when eating steamboat?
For sure you never see it in Malaysia…
I should be able to put on a real show to impress you all… xD
Look at this photo you will know it… xD And Kelvin Bar says my birthday coming soon…
He go to get 7 types of ice-cream for me…
What the hell…== It makes me feel want to vomit at the end… O.o
he want to get another 13 more come...
but i deny it... =.=
if not i really will half died...

But I am happy about it because it is special…
The birthday boy will get same number of red eggs with their age during birthday…
But I get ice-cream…
Oddly but funny… xD

I want to announce that Victor Lim does not know what feel of full…
Because he just keeps eating and eating till the end…
Oh my god…
After that we went back to Kampar…

I am happy not only because of the present…
I am happy because can stay with my friends…
Don’t know when the chance will come again…
Because nobody will know what will happened in the future…

Living in the present and cherish everything which around us…

Cherish to everything because you own it…

Every day is a gift…

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Moody

Moody

Posted by Aiden Chan on March 20, 2010 in

Well…
I am at Ipoh now…

Firstly I want to say sorry to ah yan…
Because I promise that go Jusco with her today…
But I didn’t…
Sorry…

Actually I quite happy today because can go back hometown…
My mood gone when something happened to me…

Ke Wei…
Don’t worry about that…
I’m fine…
Those photos are not important anymore…

All my photos which inside my phone was gone…
And it is deleting by me…
I press wrong buttons…
So that everything was gone…

Actually I feel nothing about it…
It is not a big deal to me…
I have gone to check just now…
Luckily some of the important photos already saved in my laptop…
Thanks god…

But I am moody now…
Not because of the photos…
Not because of the phone…

Everyone have their own limit for certain issues…
You do not understand what actually in my mind…

I already say don’t open…
But you still keep doing…

You know what is privacy?
Do you think before you click?

You say you’re sorry about it…
Does “sorry” can recover my feeling?

You say that you never saw it also…
This is because the file can’t open…
Mean you will saw it if the file can open when you click it…

Is that when people angry or moody then you only will stop it?
Do you release that someone is not happy about it?

Is it your gang style?
Always makes people feel angry then only stop…

You never see my angry face before…
Cause I never angry to you before…

I will share my things with my friends but not all…
I am human being also…
I have my own limitation and privacy…
Not everyone is allowed to go through…

My limitation to you is wide than others…
But you keep doing like that…

Try to recover it by myself…
However I can’t recover and I still lost all my messages in my phone…

I am not angry but disappointed to you…
I have written my facebook status before back from Kampar…

“no EMO allow to stay with me, cheer up everyone =)”

What I say was totally different with what I feel right now…
Should be written some happiness things in this post…
But my feel right now is strong…
And I just don’t want talk to you now…

You never know what I feel actually…

You’re not sorry…

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Honest

Honest

Posted by Aiden Chan on March 15, 2010 in

I don’t know what I should say…
I don’t know what I actually need…
I don’t know what I actually want…

I don’t know how to describe the feeling now…
I don’t know what I am doing right now…
I don’t know who I am…

I never feel this way since long time ago…
It comes to me again…
It goes thought my body and my brain…
It hurts me…

I never feel this way since long time ago…
Because no one can hurt me like this way…
I know that this is not your fault…
But it really hurt me actually…

Honest just like a knife sometimes…
It can save people from lie…
But it also can hurt people deeply…

I’m crying…
My eyes feel pain now…
It reminds me that I didn’t cry since long time ago…
Tear drop on my pillow when I am sleep on my bed…

I don’t know what in my mind actually…
I don’t know what I hope…

I am weak than past time…
Never control the emotion…
And let it trouble myself…

I know that this is not your fault…
You just say what in your mind and what actually you think…
And I just can ignore it when I hear it…

But I can’t…

This is my problem not you…
Don’t blame yourself about it…

And this is the point I should face also in the future…
Maybe will tell by others…

But I just get hurt because it telling by you…

I just want to release my feeling at here because this is the only way to release it…
I should be alone right now…
Hope to be alone now…

Maybe this is the most suitable way for me…
I am alone at all actually…

My friends…
I am fine and I just hope to release my feeling…
Please don’t ask me about it…
I don’t want to talk about it…

Sorry my friends…

I don’t know what I want to say now…
I can’t find out what I want actually…
I don’t want to talk with you now…
Maybe it will make me feel better…
Just know something which is…

Please leave me alone for a while…

Honest kill people sometime…

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Back to Reality

Back to Reality

Posted by Aiden Chan on March 10, 2010 in

I’m back…
I am come back from Genting on Monday…
Have a good and memorable trip with my friends…
Haha… ^^

Firstly I want to say thank you to Yee Wei…
Thank you for fetching me back Kampar…
Should take photo with you because this is you first time fetch me back Kampar…
And of cause the first time I saw you in Kampar…
Wahaha…

And sorry about yesterday I am not in a good mood…
Everything was gone wrong with me…
Sorry…

Next time treat you again… ^^

Actually I have a lot of things want to write about…
But I need time to edit all those photos and collect from my friends…
So I will be writing about my genting trip and last week steamboat on the next post…
For now I just want to write down my feeling in this post…

Coming soon post: (imitate Yumi again =P)
1. Steamboat
2. Genting trip

Happy period was goes quickly…
In a blink of an eye everything was passed…
I’m back to reality now…

I really enjoy the time when I stay at Genting with my friends…
No worries and no assignment around me…
I am freaking relax at that time…

Just be myself at that time…
And rely on my friends…
No need to worry too much of things…
Feel safe and I am not alone…^^

I have meet up my Ji Mui Kin siew also…
I didn’t meet her for a long time…
We have chatted a lot…

I really miss that time when stay at Genting…
Nothing spoils my mood…
Although I know that had something wrong with my friend…
But I still feel good…

No hypocritical friendship…

Nobody knows me…

No face that I don’t want to see…

Just be myself at that time…
And I still can do what I want and no need care about how people look at me…

It is just a wonderland for me…

In fact I still need back to reality…
And I must face my assignment, my worries and so on…

Just know I had gone through my friend’s blog…
And find out something…

Quote from him teong eu…

“Every Path is a Proof of Life.”

Every action and every step we step out is a proof of our life…
It brings us to a great future…
Never regret on what we have chosen…

So I have dropped all things behind me in those few days…
And now I should start to face it and solve it…
I miss that time at Genting…
But I can’t just live in the memory…

I should do something right now…^^

Actually there is something I never told anyone…
And it is a secret for me…
I am happy because of this…
I can’t say it out cause it will makes thing be worst…

And for now is time start to rush for assignment and my life again…
What I want it appear in my future…
I should prepare for now…

Last but not least…
I just want to say…

I do not ask for more, it is enough for me

Make a spurt towards the tape…

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Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday

Posted by Aiden Chan on March 07, 2010 in

Now is 5.25am in the early morning of 7th March 7, 2010…
And it is my birthday…

I am over night at my friend’s house now…
And will go to Genting soon…

Actually I have nothing to write…
Just hope to have a short post on my blog… xD

Thank you to all my friends who wish me in Facebook…
I am freaking happy about it…
Because I am first time receive many wishes in facebook…
Thank you very much…

Thank you to all my friends who text me…
My phone was something wrong just now…
Suddenly off… ish…
Anyway thank you to all my friends who text me…
I am happy because you all still remember my birthday… ^^

Thank you to my friends who call me…
Kitty and Klosen… ^^
Thank you for your call and this make me feel warm…^^

Thank you to my Ji Mui…
Although can’t celebrate with all of you…
But I still happy that you all have text me… ^^

Thank you to Yee Wei…
The one who say happy birthday to me and just beside me…^^
And accompany me go Genting… haha…
Thank you…

Thank you to all my friends…
I really happy that can receive your wishes…
Hehe…

I love you all…Muakzzz…

By the way I just want to say…

Happy Birthday to myself…

I am 20 years old now… ^^

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Alone

Alone

Posted by Aiden Chan on March 05, 2010 in

I am going Genting with my friend this Sunday…

This Sunday is my birthday…
Some of my friends ask me that…

Why choose this day to go Genting?
Can’t choose other day?

Well…
I tell you that why I choose this day…

Firstly I hope to celebrate my birthday with my friends this year…
Secondly is can come back with Kok Chun in the next day…

This is the two main reasons…

Actually I am not going to Genting for fun…

My friend asks me…
“Why do you want go to Genting?”

I answer that…
“I hope to leave from here for a while.”

My friend keeps asking…
“Leave from Kampar or Ipoh?”

I answer that…
“Both.”

Actually I hope to go Genting since the semester break started…
But I am going to KL at that time…

There are a lot of things happened to me since long time ago…
I am feeling tired for all of it…

Friends…
Family…
My studies…
Life…
My future…

I should take a break from it…
So that’s why I hope to leave from here for a while…

I just hope to escape everything here…
Just to let myself be nature a bit…

My mind is afforded too much of things now…
No way to release it out…
I just hope go somewhere which nobody knows me…

Just want to be alone…
And it will make me feel better…

I want to tell my friends…

I am fine…
Nothing happened to me and I just want to escape from here for a while…
Later I will return back…
Talkative like right now… ^^

To my ji mui…
Thank you to all of you because all of you always celebrate my birthday with me…
This year I hope to escape from here for a while…
Sorry…

To my Kampar friends…
Thank you for the doll…
I like it so much and this is first time receive a doll for present…
I hope to get a doll during my birthday since long time ago…
But my wish never comes true…
Finally I get it now… thank you… ^^

By the way, Pui Chin also dying to get a doll for present…
Hehe… if you are interested to give present to her…
Buy her a doll is better way… xD
(I help you promote you see =P)

Just back from Kampar only know that my family have go to KL to have a trip…
(Nobody tell me about it =.=)

Whatever…
Hope everything will be fine…
And I will recover like before… ^.^

Rest is a way to let us walk more far…

I love my friends…^.^

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Confuse

Confuse

Posted by Aiden Chan on March 05, 2010 in

Yesterday I had a long talk with Pui Chin…
Finally saw her…

I had text her many time to ask her come out and chat…
Finally I had already told her what I want to say…

Now I just want to tell you…

Whatever what decision you had make…
Please do not regret about it…

If you regret mean you are not respect to your decision right now…
Do not feel regret after make the decision…
That’s enough for it…

There are many ideas come into my mind after chat with her…
Suddenly I started to doubt about my future…

What will be happened in the future?
What I want to be in my future?

Can I achieve the future which I set for mine now?

There are no answers for all the questions…

The real life was disturbed my train of thoughts…
The condition of being mature is think more…

I really think too much recently…
And it makes my brain can’t afford it…

Just now I had taken a nap and now feel better…

I just want to be alone and think about it…
I like to think…

Is it the future really far from us?

Always listen from the others say that…

“Study this course and then you will no need to worry your future.”

Are you sure?

Human being always likes to believe in thing which is benefit to them…

Can you sure that anything will be fine like what you had mentioned?

A lot of people always say that early to work can get more work experience than others who are still studying…
Its sound good and it is true…
They are really had more work experience than the others who still studying…

But do you have think before that is it really easy to get the work experience?
Do you have think before about how those people get their work experience?

Do you?

We always hear someone say that…
Study this course and you no need worry will lost job in the future…
Really?
Things really are well and good like what you say?

Say the truth…
Nobody had thought deeply about it…

Human being always likes to look at the surface of certain thing…
And always forget about the inside of certain thing…

I am started to doubt about my future…
Can I achieve to the future which I say before?

I can’t get the answer now…
I should really need to think about it…

What I want and what I need actually…

“What you want is not what you need actually”

this is my quotation…

“And what you need usually not what you’re willing to achieve.”

This is quote from Dai Koh…

Human being is like this…
Always like to ask for more and do not want to let something go…

Just like what my friends told me before…
There are many parts for changed in our life…
There is a lot of different changing in different parts of our life…

I am in changing in one of the part of my life…

Using the old words…

Changing for improvement…
Without changing there are no improvements…

But I hate changing…

I am feeling confuse to my future…
I should think about it…

Good luck, my friends…

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After thr rain ^^

After thr rain ^^

Posted by Aiden Chan on March 03, 2010 in

Before I stared to write it…
I want to announce something at here first…

Originally I have two blogs…
I was using language Chinese to update my blog since long time ago…
But started using language English recently…

But I miss that time when I written in Chinese…
So for now I have made a decision for it…

One blog is Chinese, another blog is English…
Haha….
Do you think that I am bored and nothing to do?
Lol…
No choice…

Just to follow what I like…^^

If you want to read in English then go to blogspot…
If you want to read in Chinese then go to wretch…

That’s all about what I want to announce…

The day before yesterday was 1st of March…
Actually is not a big day and it is just normal Monday…
Nothing for everyone…

For me, it was a big day…

The day of result release…

Oh my god…

I can’t online in the whole day…
It makes me worry and freaking nervous…

My friends were calling me and tell me can’t check the result yet…
I am feel more and more panic… =.=

I am looking forward to it and at the same time I am fear on it…
I am looking forward to know does my effort have brought me a good result…
I am feeling fear on it because I am scare what the result is…

I am out of mind in the whole day…
Do not pay attention to everything…

My friends say help me to check it but do not let me know…
I answer back I want to check by myself…
Thank you for the thought…

I should face all of those things by myself…

God is challenging my patience…
I can’t get into the Internet for the whole day…

I go to pek xin house to online at that night…
I started to check my result…

My result was slowly appearing and shows on the screen…
Well…

I get it and I saw it…

Haha…
I am freaking happy after get it…
It is more than what I expected…

I am happy not all because of I passed the entire subject…
I am happy because my tamadun islam was pass…^^

The only one Malay subject…
I am feeling surprise when saw it…
Oh my god…

Okay okay…
Now I only left one subject to re-sit…
I should pay more effort on it and pass it… ^^

This is my result…
Hehe…
I have improved compare to last semester… ^^

CHAN CHEE MENG DIPLOMA IN MASS COMMUNICATION (PUBLIC RELATIONS) AELE2263 ENGLISH FOR COMMUNICATION B AEMS1512 TAMADUN ISLAM DAN ASIA C AHLA1023 INTRODUCTION TO DRAMA B AHMC1084 MASS MEDIA AND SOCIETY B- AHMC2424 PUBLIC RELATIONS B AHMC1074 INTRODUCTION TO MASS COMMUNICATION B 01 MARCH 2010

CGPA: 2.7187

It was a bit different feeling compare to last time when I get my result…
Maybe it is because it good than last time…^^

Human always look for better…
Although they had get what they want…
They always hope to get better than now…

Human is greedy…

I called my mother to tell her about my result after I get it…
I can know that she was happy when hear my good news…^^

After called my mother, I text my sisters…
I am really happy about it…
Haha…

My sisters was freaking happy after get my good news…
Haha…

I am happy not because of my result…
Is because my family…

At least my family was happy about it…
I am satisfied with it…^^

I know that some of my friends were not happy with their result…
I can feel the same way with all of you because last time I was like that…

Thing happened at the same time and same venue…
The only different was happened on different people…

I hear from others say that one of my friends wants to redraw…
This situation reminds me something which happened during I studied certificate…

Same situation like past time…

I just want to tell my friend…

Are you considering clearly about it?
This is the last semester…
Are you really wanted to give up for the last chance?

Are you willing to give up everything at here?

Tell the true…

There are not much time for learning and studying in our life…
And it was limited…
The limited time will started to countdown after you started to work…

I have told my friend before…

You tell me that you can’t achieve it…
I answer you that you should put more effort on it, and you can achieve it…

You tell me that it was wasting money…
I answer you that this money can exchange one chance to you…
And can buy a memory which you and friends study’s life…

You tell me that you can’t pass the exam…
I answer you that nobody knows what will happen in the future…
And maybe will have something changed in the last minutes…

You tell me that you have make decision…
I answer you that you will regret because you give up a chance…

Once the chance lost you will never get it back…

Do you really think what you choose is correct?
I am not your best friends…
And of cause maybe I am someone who you hate at all…

But I just want to say that…

Don’t give up any chance you have right now…
If you tell me that you have try to get it before…
Do you really put much effort on it?
Do you?

Answer will be appearing in you deep mind…

Want to talk with you just hope that you can think clearly…

Choice is you’re…
It only depends on you…

Friend is mine…
I will try my best to help you…
This is my choice…

Cheer up, my friend… ^^

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