Realistic

Realistic

Posted by Aiden Chan on February 28, 2010 in

I had never use Chinese to update my blog since long time ago…
I am using English for a long time…

I am being used to write in English…
But I miss the writing style in Chinese…

The variety of words…
Same word but had different meaning…
This is the special of Chinese word…
I miss all of those…

Why am I writing in English?
This is because I want to improve my English language…
But seem like nothing had improved…

I am moody yesterday…
My birthday is coming soon…
I should be happy for it but in fact not…

I had thinking about many things yesterday night…
It makes me lose sleep…

What I want?
What I actually need and want now?
What is the meaning of me to live in this world?

What happened to me?

I don’t know about it…

My birthday is coming soon…
This means that I will be 20 years old soon after my birthday…
Think back about it…
I had graduate 3 years from secondary school…

Think back about it…
What I had done in these 3 years?
Is that any changing on me?

I have no answer for it…
Seem like I always look back and live in the past…
The most special and successful thing that I had done in these 3 years was graduated from certificate…
And then?

I can’t figure out any special or meaningful thing which I had done in these 3 years…

I know what I actually want and need in the past time…
But now is totally different with the past self…

Time is passing forward…
And I just let it passing…

I had changed a lot in different aspect…
I lost what I should persist in…
What happened to me?

Other people were following their dream…
How about me? What I had done for it?
I just sitting here and do nothing for my dream…
I just look back all those memory…
Totally no plan and action for my future…
My dream was far from me than last time…

My thirst for knowledge is weakness than past time…
I am turning a blind eye to the entire thing which surrounds me…
And I am being realistic also…
I lost my innocent…

The realistic was killing my dream and my mind…
Environment changed everything…

I thought I will be the winner of this war…
I thought I will never change myself…

But in fact is different…
Actually I am the loser in this war…
I am being defeated by the environment…
I am being defeated by present self which are in changing…

What happened to me?

Realistic make me be mature…
The thing which bring along with mature is lost…
Lost my innocent…

Now I only know that this is what called mature…

Don’t know what I should do now…
The semester 2 result will be release on tomorrow…
Hope everything will be fine and can get a successful result…
God bless…

I had talked with Kitty yesterday…
I am freaking happy to talk with her…
Because it makes me feel relax when talking with her…
Maybe do not have any conflict between us…
Thank you Kitty… ^^

Talking with Kitty just like talking with ab…
Feel relax and happy…
Thank you Ab also… ^^

Chat with both of you makes me feel like past time…
Get back something I had lost in the past…

I admit that I am realistic sometimes…
I admit that I am incisive sometimes…

But I only will be like that when face to certain issues…

Nobody knows what in the cockles of my heart…
I am not brave like what you expected to me….

But my image is totally different with what had in my mind…
Well… I am being used to it since long time ago…

Your face show out what your mind is…
I can only change my mind by the way to affect my image…

Sorry to my friends about all of it…
I am fine…
I just want to realize my feeling…
Don’t worry about me… ^^

Just now go to my friend’s blog…
Ah moon.. ^^

I started to question myself after read her blog…

I am being lazier recently…
No power and no interested in doing anything else…
Do nothing everyday…

Is the realistic changing me?

I just want to say that…

Flashback to the memory I had passed through…
Finding myself which lost in the past…

Find back what belong to me and what originally I am…
Ignore any realism issues…

Makes my dream from dreaming into processing…
Therefore my dream was not only a dream…

I want to walk away from this realistic world…

have a nice day...^^

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Domo-kun

Domo-kun

Posted by Aiden Chan on February 27, 2010 in Orange's collection,

Well…
Something happened on me recently…
It is a good thing to me…

It is really much too sudden…
Well…

I am fall in love with someone now… ^^

Wait… stop…
I know that you should have something in your mind now when you read it…
Let me guess…
I have study psychology… I can read your mind now… xD
(Actually can’t but just want to have fun… xD)
(I’m so brazen now xD)
Haha…

“Who is the unlucky one?”
“Huh? Shit lo.”
“Boy or girl?”

Haha…
I guess if my friends read until here…
Will answer like below…

AB: “huh?? Yeah… who is the one?”
Joyi: “who is the boy?”(=.=’’ cant girl meh? )(Beside nick will just laugh)
Pek Xin: “really? Who?”
Pui chin: “shit la you, tell me tell me.”
Koh: “Oh. Congratulate.”
Victor:”Sor lui lei geh.”
Jun hao:”ha? Who jek?”

Haha…
Okay…
I will intro to you all…

This is someone who I fall in love with… ^^

Haha…
Is it so cute?
It called Domo-Kun…
Haha…

Wakaka…
I really fall in love with it recently…
(Don’t slap me)
(Don’t kill me)

Haha… xD
Last time I saw it in parade…
That time only have a small small one in the animation shop…
Then I saw ai tein also have one… (The phone pocket)

And last week before started school…
I went out with wai kheng…
We went to parade for bought present for her boyfriend and also shopping at the same time…

I didn’t go parade since long time ago…
Because of far for me and me lazy to out…
Haha… I am lazy guy… xD

Okay return to my topic…
I saw a DomoKun doll… ^^

Got 3 different sizes, large, middle and small…
Oh my god…

And have two different types, one is sited and other was standing…
Oh my god…
(I am dizzy for it… xD)

In my mind a voice telling me…

“I should have one.”

Haha… xD

Friends don’t be surprise on it…
My closest friends know that I am like that…
My classmates who came to my house before also can know that… xD

So don’t feel surprise on it…
I never say I like a Man before…
I am girlish I know that…

I know who I am and I am used to it… xD

Oh my god…
I go to Internet search for it…
Haha… I find a lot of goods about DomoKun…
I will be crazy to buy all of it if it had in shopping center… xD



But I just want the dolls and the pillow… (So cute) ^^
Haha… it makes me crazier again…
Other just wants to share with you all… xD
I am still like a child…
(Don’t talk back behind Me. xD)

Although almost 20 years old soon…

Well…
I should save money to buy it now…
Wakaka…

Haha…
That’s what I want to say today…
And something wants to write at here…
Don’t simply think the person I write is you…
If not you will live in a hard way…

No matter how people look at you…
Ignore the gossip and accept the comment…
Just be yourself…

Look clearly who actually you are…
Mix around with your friends and look clearly who is the real friends…

Bitch and Bastard are around us in every time…
What they want was just to see us flow from the high place…
And get injury hurt…

What we should do is to drop them down before you flow from it…
This is what I think…

And of cause what I will do if…

You are a Bitch or Bastard to me…

Have a nice day… my friends…^^
I damn love Domokun recently… hehe…

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The End ^^

The End ^^

Posted by Aiden Chan on February 26, 2010 in

Okay…
Seem like long time didn’t updated my blog…
(Actually I just updated few days ago.)

Actually this post should be posted few days ago…
Because of my natural characteristic “Lazy” so delay until now only write… xD

My holidays were ending already…
Hope it will never gone away from me…
But just like what I had say before…
I can’t control it, I can’t stop it and I can only let it go…
I miss the time during holidays…

I had done many things in my holidays…hehe…
People who read my blog before will know… xD

Now is week 1 of semester 3…
Should be a good starting actually…
But I don’t think so…

This semester only have 2 subjects which are Intro of Electronic Publishing and Psychology 1…
What the hell…
Psychology is appearing in this semester right now… >.<>.< ) Result of last semester will be release on 1st of March… I am freaking nervous about it…

I don’t want fail anymore!!! >.<

I don’t want to fail any subjects…
If fail Tamadun Islam I still feel okay about…
But other subjects please don’t fail…
I already try my best to answer the paper…
Haiz…

Now I hope all my friends can pass the exam…
And get a successful result on 1st of March… ^^

By the way want to say that…
My birthday is coming soon…
But I had no ideal on it…
I hope can get what I want during my birthday… hehe… xD
(Dreaming…)
I should buy something to myself…keke…
Save money first… xD

Recently feel like not being used to the life in Kampar…
Maybe I had long time didn’t study…

Feel strange to everything around me when stay at Kampar…
Am I thinking too much?
Or it is true?

Always play facebook…
Oh…
I had found one meaningful sentence from facebook…
Get it from an answer of a quiz…
It is Chinese but I translate in English…
(If had grammar mistake, sorry about that)
(I am improving my English now)
(That’s why I write in English)

“When you cry in front of mirror, it won’t smile to you”
“You should be happy so that everything will be fine”

Mean don’t upset and be happy to face any problem…
Crying can’t solve any problem and useless for solving problem…

When your mind be happy…
Everything will be all right… ^^

This is my principle also…^^
Should be optimistic… haha…
(By the way Talkative also ^^)

That’s what I want to say…

My holidays officially ended and I should continue to study for my future…
Everything should move forward although I not clear about what will happened in the future…

I lost in my mind maze…
Lost direction…
Smoke was fogged my sight line…

But I don’t worry about it…

Everything was only fog and it will disappear in one day…
I can find a way out from this maze…

There is a belief in my mind…
And it makes me feel better all the time…^^

Optimistic is the only way to support me and bring me leave away from sadness…

When you smile, everything will be fine… ^^

Smile… ^.^

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Reunion ^^

Reunion ^^

Posted by Aiden Chan on February 24, 2010 in

Last Saturday I had a wonderful memory…
Hehe…

Wake up in the early morning…
I rejected all of the appointments and so on…
I am not pay attention in doing other thing…
I am waiting the dating coming…^^

I know what your mind thinking now…

“What? You also have dating? ”
“Who will date you out?”
“Fxxk.”

Haha…
Actually is not a dating…
That night was my old classmate reunion…
Woo hoo…

I am dying to meet them…^^
Because I had long time didn’t meet them…
Damn excited… xD

I look at my watch…
Time is passing forward…
And I just let it pass…
I am anticipating for the reunion… >.<

We plan to meet at 8pm at oldtown kopitiam… Haha…
A bit far for me…
But I don’t mind it… ^^

I am the first person who arrives there…
(I am dying to see them xD)

After 15 minute more siew sin comes too…
We choosing a place to sit and waiting other to come…
After half an hour only 3 of us arrive…

We thought other won’t come anymore… (Quite sad)
Suddenly friends come one by one…
Haha… happy …^^

Finally 16 people of our class have attended this gathering…
Actually our class has 29 people…
But is okay for us because half of the class has attended this gathering… ^^

We chit chat for a long time…
Because we really long time didn’t chat like right now…
When all of them see me…

The first word come from their mouth are the same word…

“Fat.” =.=

“Why you so fat already?”
“Sei Fei zai.”
“You eat well sleep well right?”

Long time no see also ever change the talking style to me…
But I like it… xD
It makes me feel closer with you all…

We talk about our recent actions…
We talk about what we had done in past time…
And make fun on someone and laugh together…
I have captured many photos…
I just post some of it at here…
This is Wai heng and Soo Soo…
Last time they are class beau and class beauty of our class…
of cause won't win in the competition... xD

Now we want them take a photo…
I put their photo together with the pass time…
I only can use one Chinese sentence to describe it…

“岁月不饶人”…

Friends who do not understand please ask your friends…
Then you will understand what I mean… xD

I never miss the chance to take photo…
After that we go back home and plan next year meet again…
And want to tell other who does not attend this reunion…
Next year you should attend… xD
Haha…

After the reunion I had go to barroom with my friends…
I will write it into next post…

I take out my photo album and look back those entire photos I had captured during secondary school…
I miss that time when we all stick together…
I still remember everything which had happened in the past…

Looking at the photo which just now taken…
And looking back the post I written last time…
(About graduate, if want to read it press the link below ^^)
click me and bring you go somewhere ^^


Everyone had changed…
Some of them still studying, some of them already working and some of them already get marry…

Unconsciously I had graduated 3 years from secondary school…
Everyone had grown up and started their journey…

My tear flow from my eye and drop on the floor…

I really miss that time when we all stay together…
We talk whatever what we like…
We do whatever what we like…
We skip classes together…
And many funny thins…

I am crying not because of sad…
I miss you all so much…
We still are very friendly to each other although we have argument and so on…
We go trip together…

Think back all those things…
I am freaking happy have such friends and classmates like all of you…
We have been stay together in the same class in two years…

We are special than other cause our class never exchanges people since form4…
I can’t stop my tear and just let it drop on the floor…
I really miss the time when we stay together…
I never feel any stress when stay with all of you…

I always remember all of you…
Just hope all of you do not forget me…

Later going to sleep…
I think I will stop to cry later…
Thank you god let us meet each other…
Thank you to you all be friend with me... ^^

I will never forget it…
Next year we should have reunion again… ^^

Just want to tell my friends…

I Love you all… ^^

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Recently

Recently

Posted by Aiden Chan on February 19, 2010 in

2 days more my semester 3 will officially started…

Time pass faster than I…

Actually there are a lot of thing happened during Chinese New Year…

It is a part of my holiday…

But I didn’t write about it…

I just stop at the holiday 12…

Haha…

I have changed my blog background and song in my blog…

I love the background of my blog now...

And of cause the song… ^^

Before Chinese New Year I am awaiting the new semester started…

Human being is contradicting…

Now I am hope my new semester never started…

I am missing my friends…

Missing my family…

Missing everything happened in these holidays…

I don’t want to go back Kampar right now…

I still have a lot of thing not done yet…

But I can’t control it…

I should go back and study…

I think many people also have the same idea with me…

Don’t want to start school again… xD

Don’t worry…

After one week I will be back here again…

And I have 3 days can stay at Ipoh…

Because Monday no class… ^^

Saving money for a trip…

Planning everything for myself…

I should return to past time…

Smile always and talkative…

My birthday is coming soon…

Hope can get what I want…. xD

(Announce at here)

(Friends, you should know what to do) xD

(Joking)

I have been didn’t updated blog by using language Chinese…

Feel like my Chinese had degeneracy…

Worrying =.=

Never mind…

Later I will write in Chinese again… ^^

Return back to my normal writing style… ^^

Seem like everyone also have their own writing style… (Jealous)

Don’t want to follow other but just alike them…

Haha…. Don’t know how to separate it and make it different…

Just post a normal small post at here…

Next time only write something interest…

xD

I never wish my friends at here…

i should wish now...

(Better than don’t wish)

Happy Chinese New Year…^^

Happy Holiday…^^

Happy Valentine… ^^

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Holidays - Day 12 ^^

Holidays - Day 12 ^^

Posted by Aiden Chan on February 18, 2010 in

Day : Friday
Date: 12/02/2010

Today just as usual…
Go jogging with my mother and having breakfast…

Same thing happened again…
Go to help my brother to do something…

Of cause not me do it…
(Don’t say me lazy or what because I don’t know how to do it.)
(And I don’t want to break anything.)
(I am that type of people who don’t do anything but just eat and broke thing when do anything.)
(Direct translate from a Cantonese sentence… haha… xD)

My mother and my aunty are washing the salted eggs…
I don’t know the eggshell is white in colour…
I through is black it colour… xD
I am kampung boy… xD

After wash it still needs to take out the yolk…
The yolk so cute…
Small small and orange in colour…
Like a pingpong ball…
(But I think it alike dragon ball… xD)

Oh…
By the way my aunty told me again…
My brother has taken another BITCH back home…

Haha…
Of cause not a human being BITCHES…
Is another female dog… xD

It was so cute and so quite
You see… ^^

Oh…
I also have taken photo about the first dog of my brother…
The ugliest dog in the world…. Haha…
Really feel like that when saw it…
But after long time we think it is the beautiful dog in the world… xD
Can’t capture its face causes it always run away…
So only can capture its sexy back… xD

And I had changed my spec…
Woo hoo… finally I changed it… xD

Bigger than last time that one but smaller than another one… xD


After that we back home…
I go out Yum Cha with my gang in the evening…


Happy tree friends again… xD
We go to Aberneen if I not spell wrong…
Behind kopitiam there…

The food of there was…

So SUCK!!!

Oh my god…
Totally opposite with past time…
Next time don’t go there anymore… =P

That’s all about today…^^


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Conclusion: another normal day, but I get one new goods… ^^

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Mood: happy 73%

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Orange says:
Human beings always like to ask for more…
What you want actually is not what you need…

What you want is only something which in your thinking…
What you need is something which really can affect you in a positive way…

Does what you want is something which what you need actually?

“Think clearly what you want and what you need.”

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~The End~

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Holidays - Day 11 ^^

Holidays - Day 11 ^^

Posted by Aiden Chan on February 17, 2010 in

Day : Thursday

Date: 11/02/2010

Few more days go will be Chinese New Year…

But I still can’t feel any Chinese New Year mood now…

Am I something wrong?

Or really don’t have that mood?

My mother also told me the same…

She also can’t feel any Chinese New Year mood although we have decorated this year…

Anywhere also can’t see the decoration but still feel the same…

Oh my god…

How can be like that?

Chinese New Year should be very happy…

Do not think about other thing…

Happy happy …

(Try to persuade myself to be happy… xD)

Oh…

Should announce at here that…

Congratulation to Vinx…^^

TarCollege Penang Branch PR’s result already release…

And she passes the entire subject but only one fail…

When she told me the result was release…

Make me feel nervous you know…

Don’t know what I should do…

Sweat… ==’’

Finally found out that only penang result release only…

But I still want to congratulate her about it… ^^

You can enjoy your Chinese New Year now… woo hoo…

Oh…

By the way I also receive the timetable for our class in the next semester…

Firstly want say thank you to 3 persons…

Heng Goh , Pei Pei and Kitty… ^^

Thank you Heng Goh for inform me about the timetable and the e-mail… ^^

Thank you Pei Pei for post the timetable into Facebook and let all of us discuss about it…

Thank you Kitty for text me to inform me about it…

Thank you to all my friends…

Actually I miss you all so much…^^

Feel happy about our timetable because of Monday we have no class…

Woo hoo….

By the way actually I feel worry also when I saw our timetable…

I am worry about the subject… T^T

Psychology comes into the next semester…

Oh my god…

Why so fast!? I not yet prepare about it…

Many people say that it is harder than drama…

(Worrying…)

And need to study in a short time which only 7 weeks…

Oh my god… is too rushing for me…

Hope I can cover it…

Okay…

Return to the Chinese New Year…

Do you know realize that when Chinese New Year coming…

POPULAR will appear a lot of aunty and uncle?

Haha…

Of cause is time for them to shop…

Shop for what?

Shop for the fortune-telling books… xD

Chinese people like to read it when started a new year…

Haha…

(I and my mother also one of them. =P)

Recently I hear a Chinese New Year song…

Not “大日子”… of cause not the Noname also….

This is a song edited from a nursery rhyme…

Oh my god… I love it so much…

And this is my style also… xD

The name of the song is 有只老虎…

Funny name… ^^

It is edited from the song “两只老虎”… haha…

I had put on my blog here to share with you all…

Haha…

Nothing special today…

Wish you all…

Happy Chinese New Year…^^

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Conclusion: a normal day… ^^

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Mood: normal 70%

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Orange says:

People always hope miracle happened on them…

They always wait for it…

Without doing anything but hope their dream will come true…

Actually it is wasting time…

And makes you be worst…

“Believe in miracle, but do not rely on miracle.”

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~The End~

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