ILY.Friends 2001201

ILY.Friends 2001201

Posted by Aiden Chan on January 20, 2012 in

Just went to an interview for my internship next semester,
I had tried my best to show the better me (I think),
Now is the time to wait for the answer.

Randomly snap some photos before out to interview. (Please skip it if you mind my ugly face)

Thank you to my crazier friends for drive me here and there.
Honestly I really don’t know how/what to do if without you guy.
Thank you =)

After the interview, cos of no key back home, I stay back on her/his house and back at night.
I walk into her room, sitting for a while and chit chats.
After while stand up and walk to his room to discover any new things or not.

The familiar feeling was cross my mind at the moment. IMY.
They are my EXHousemates, we are like a big family last time.
You come to my room to sleep and I walk to your room to talk with you.
Sitting in the living room to gossip or assignment.
I do miss it so much =’)

Photo is the only decision to keep the memories for me.
I’m requesting taken from the top to bottom so that I can look slimmer in the photo. Haha
Sure to keep the best memories rather than the worst memories. xP

Because of the random plan to stay at their house, I had not brought any cloths to exchange.
Lewis borrow his cloths for me, the first thought of me was can I fit in?
I should have a try first, never try, never know. =P

Boys and girls, be aware of this, the world will be end in so soon, cos I can fit into his cloths!!!
Wow, what a big/great news ever =D
It means I’m slimmer than before, is a good start I think =D *weehee*

Went out the movie and I back the home at last finally.

D306, all here. =)

The mood was so wrong today,
Today is the last day for this sem that I stay back at KL.

My feeling was being weirder after chatting with another gang of friends.
I know it was just a semester break but yet I still not be used to it.
“Uncle” will not teaching us anymore and yet his word worst my mood.

We are being as close now but we are gonna separate now. =/
The fact is always cruel. This is not the first time I’m facing the same issues.
No matter how many times I deal with it, I still can’t handle my feeling well.
I DO MISS IT so much and don’t want let it go.

It is so hard for me to find a gang of friends like this.
I’m so afraid of one day our relationship will be changed to stranger again.

Like some others say that, we still can keep our friendship till forever if you really want to.
I understand it, but in fact, it was totally different.
When someone no longer involve into your life, even thought you try to tell what had happen around you to him/her. They only can listen and only listen because they are no longer being a part of it anymore/no more.

I hate this fact always. =’/ it’s hurt so much.

No matter how many times it happen on me I still can’t handle it well.

Anyway, I will try my best to hold it till I can’t take it anymore.
I never give up to any of my friends. So let us make it happen, I mean make forever happen on our friendship, can? =’)

Nothing more to say in this post,
I gonna leaving here in so soon, I’m gonna prepare to leave and back to my homesweethome.

Nothing much in this post and will be less update since I had no internet access in my hometown.
But yet I will try my best to update =D
Please stay tune.

Before the end,

I do love you all, my friends.

Btw Happy CNY.

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A year 17012012

A year 17012012

Posted by Aiden Chan on January 17, 2012 in

Before I start the post, wanna tell you that it’s not a sharing post.
I mean that I’m not going to recommend you a place to visit,
I do sharing here but not something happy I guess =x
Sorry for that, it just a post which to express my feeling and to tell someone before CNY
I will seldom online during my holiday, same issues, I had no Internet access in my home.
It is a post to tell someone about my feeling toward them, it a way so call indirectly =)
You can continue to read it if you don’t mind it.
My sadness and anger may kill your mood, tell you in first, no blame on me please =x

15012011, a day I’ll not forget about it.
I make a decision on the day and I cried like hell before that.
17012012, a year after the day, same reaction again like last year, I’m gonna make a decision again.
The only different was I din cry at all at the moment.

To those who wanna know what I had written on 15012011,
You can search back on my previous post on the day, the title is the date 15012011 if I not mistaken.
I’m not gonna put the link here. Sorry =)

Time move forward without my notice, it was already a year after the day.
I choose to stay away from you since the day and you know the reason I guess.
I try to not have any connection with you in anything like studies, trips, anythings.

God love funny jokes I think, again, we were in the same group for assignment.
I don’t know what to say about it, anyway it’s over.

I feel that you’re trying so hard to get back to me, I mean us (me + sistar).
You joining the new gang before the end of diploma studies life, aren’t you?
And now you choose to leave the gang again like how you do in the previous.

I told myself that I must tell you all the stories before I leave/you leave by face to face.
I didn’t do it at the last. No matter how, I still wanna tell you even in this so called indirectly way.

I feel alone when first come to the strangeness place.
I’m afraid of the environment, people here and anything. I do miss my gang and family so much.
You never know that, I do really treat you as my best friend here and the level is like how my gang was. You’re the only one here who sticks with me the most in the previous.
We do have the longer friendship but yet you do hurt me the most.

I remember every single you said and something I see.
I know I’m the one who ignore you at first when first come here but I do to get I back.
It may be the reason that makes you treat me like this.

There are too much of detail I can’t write it out, my sadness mixing with the anger now.
Wanna let you know, I had tear too much for you and I don’t think it is worth.
I mostly cried for every week and make my friends worry about me.
Thank you to my friends especially sistar, they do support me a lot in this cruel period ever in my life. I can’t imagine how I can survive in that alone. Luckily I do have lot of friends care me even thought the one who not around me.

The first and ever that I make everyone worry about me in this way, keep on message me, fb inbox and so on. Thank you for making me in such FUCKUP situation and let me know my friends are love me.

You said I’m treating you bad,
Yes maybe, I treat you bad till the max like asking my friends to share room with you, and I stay alone in a strangeness place with no one.
I had done a lot for you but you never ever know it.
I guess is not important to you at all, and all of this was my stupid action for you.

I will keep on reading on the previous page and at the moment I will continue to read the next page. When the same problem comes on the next page I will not do wrongly because I remember what I had learned from the previous page. I will still refer to the previous page. This is my reading style.

No more tear for you anymore, no more/anymore.
I thought I understand you so well but at the end I just found out how stupid I am.

I still trust you since the day you come back but you still in the same concept, FUCKUP your 2 is better than 1 theory. Oh gosh, I still believe you and this is 3rd time you did it please FUCKOFF and go away.

I still treat you as my friends but yet you told other you had no friends. Thank you god, I lost a friend I think. Do you know what mean of boycott? Please think before you told the others.

I’m foolish that try to get away from your new gang and keep quiet so that you can mix with your new gang. Try to not involve of your new life and make myself suffer.
How stupid I’m,
Luckily I din follow it if not I’m gonna lost a gang of friends.

You are trying to boycott me in many ways I know and I feel it.
Try to not talk with me, try to ignore me and try your best to get away from me.
I know it, I feel it and I get it. Thank you for hurting so so much.

It was fucking funny when you’re trying to talk with me when nobody answers you.
What a funny joke ever I had heard before.

It is totally different with the previous post; I do really written the previous post with the leave in peace feeling.
But it is freaking different now, I guess you know it,

I FUCKING HATE YOU NOW.

Whatever you said, your voice or any single word/thing you touch I also hate it.

My friends told me, just ignore you and if I do like this way, it still loves you as in bad manner.
Thank you to my friends, I know you guy are caring me so much.
But I do willing to love him/you in the bad manner =)

No one can hurt me like how you do ever in my life, more worst than the Demon couple.
You are also the only one I hate till the max.
Thank you for the hurt so much in order to create the dark side of mine.

I do really treat you like my little brother previously but no more.
I think you don’t need a friend like me I guess. But no worries, I swear you will never ever find someone like me and my sistar.

Don’t trust your so called friend!?
Oh man, please, you don’t even know what mean of friends.

As in your define of the term “friends”,
I think it means betray, can fall for two girls who are best sister/friends so that make the 2 sisters relation get worst, or else it may means that someone you can mix with when you need and leave away and come back again as you LIKE.

FUCKYOU.

Don’t keep on asking me how my friends recently,
Why not I ask you, how your friends recently do?

Please think clearly, I have no such big power like what you said, INFLUENCE THE OTHERS.
I’m not god okay, and yet I’m just an ordinary boy who damn girlish.
This is because can trust no you.

I do really hateyounow more, you are not what you said and you do what you DON’T say.
Luckily I leave you early, my friends and sistar so proud of me I know it =D

Thank you my friends, ipoh, kl, Kampar, bitches fiction gang and sistar.
My supporter always and thank you for treat me like a real friends but not so call friends.

I’m not the kind of person to bear anyone a grudge but I do remember any single things my friends had done to me.
Every single word my friends said I do remember no matter it hurt me or loves me.

In conclusion,

I’m satisfied with my life now like how you said last time. =)

I din give up you but you’re the one who give up on me at first.

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The City of Romance 16012012

The City of Romance 16012012

Posted by Aiden Chan on January 16, 2012 in

I just went back from the trip with my crazy friends here.
Thank you to you guy for giving me so much memories. =D
I’m lucky enough to meet you guy in the strangeness places.
Really thank you a lot =D

Sure, I will talk about it in my blog for sure but not at this moment =P
I’ll talk about it on the next coming post.
Here are something wanna share with you guy.

Randomly talk about the nice place we should go during the trip,
And talk about the place I wish to go the most, Paris, the city of romance.
The place I wish to go for long time, and it being more demand on this few years.

My friend ask me about the reason,
Actually I don’t think of any reasons, just feel like I must go there and have a look.
Erm, how should I say, it’s a dream place I wish to go and take a lot of photos.
No matter which angle for photo shooting of Eiffel tower, it still looks nice. Haha.

I love it since I’m child, the reason was Eiffel tower is looks so romance =P
I know it is a bit over for a child, anyway, that are me.

Being more demand to Eiffel tower while in the college,
I think are influence by my best sistar abby. HAHA.
We do promise to go there together, for wedding shooting of her and so on.
It is a dream I know but I still love it =)
Maybe we can really make it, who knows?

After all the thinking and so on,
An answer was come into my mind and I directly say it out without my notice,

I just wish that I can take a piece of photo of the Eiffel tower by myself. =)

I read from a news before, it says that the government of France are gonna work the “go green” concept on the Eiffel tower.
I think I should save money and go there before the so call plan work.
God, please make my wish come true.

I still love the ordinary and originally Eiffel tower. =)

Here are the collection of mine =P
It is really nice =D

Can you feel the romance from it? For me, definitely YES. =D

Even though only a part of Eiffel tower, it still looks pretty nice. =D

The city of romance is the best destination for couple =)
I wish one day I can, just wish. *pray hard*

Eiffel tower, the symbol of romance as we know that.
But it does not mean only couple can come,
Alone can make it look special in another way =)
And this is one of my plans.

The last one I love the most actually, and I do really hope it will come true =)
Eiffel tower is not only for couple, you can take nice photo with your friends,
And I love this photo the most; I see the love and friendship together toward the photo. =D

So, tell me what do you feel right now?
It is really so nice? Haha
Anyway, I’m just so in love with it.

I wish I can go there in one day.
Is better not alone but with someone I love =) or a gang of friends I don’t mind =D
That’s all the post about.
Wish you guy love it =D
p/s: I do wish you all fall in love with it like how I do =P

I love Eiffel Tower.

Paris, je t’aime.

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