Dilemma 24092011

Dilemma 24092011

Posted by Aiden Chan on September 24, 2011 in

Again, I’m in trouble now…
Erm, it should consider as a dilemma rather than a trouble…
I’m in a dilemma now…

What I should do and which I should choose for?
What future I want and I need?
Am I trying to run away from the realistic world or I really want to do so?

What I really want and what the realistic can give to me?
I’m confusing about my future now…

The brain told me that I gonna start work after diploma…
I know it and yet I understand it well,
So I should not think too much about it…
I should listen to others and do not bear anyone else…

But yet the heart come and stopping me from it…
The heart told me about the feeling of to do something
But didn’t tell me the reason and what to do so…
And now I’m in dilemma…

Brain asks me to work but the heart stop me,
The feeling make me wanna run away from all of the stuffs…

I should not take action like this since I always told the others do not run away what had been in front of you…
God make a crack on me, it is my turn now…
But can I? Can I just brave enough to face it?
Can I prove the statement that made by myself?

I don’t know,

The first and ever feeling like “I really don’t know” in my life…
There are so many “I don’t know” in my previous life but yet I can found out the answer at last by myself…

I’m not daring to hear the word from her mouth…
It really hurt if I hear it and I gonna to end up everything and follow the rules of realistic…

Life is what you give and what you get…
I understand it so well,
That’s why I’m trying and trying to give whatever I can…
And hoping to get what I can get…
But yet life is still life, the realistic kill the hope…

What I’m trying to give doesn’t mean what I will get soon…

I’m not that clever like somebody else…
What the hell I’m still do so…

I’m not that rich like somebody else…
I have no right to choose the other ways…

All the facts are telling me the truth of life, so what the hell I’m still in dilemma?

The optimistic is still staying with me I know,
That’s why I’m still in dilemma, I still keeping the little hope…

But the realistic is killing me a little bit by bit…

The first and ever “I really don’t know” in my life, 

it killing me…

I hope to get ”I know what to do” back now…

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14092011

14092011

Posted by Aiden Chan on September 15, 2011 in

a day to be remember, it is my dream...
the dream of mine and my family...

finally it comes to us...
i'm gonna to cry out the happiness...
just a short post...

I can meet you guy in convo ='D

Thank you =')

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01092011 MissYouAll

01092011 MissYouAll

Posted by Aiden Chan on September 02, 2011 in

Wake up in the early morning,
Having breakfast with my family as usual…

I went back to the place today to get my stuffs back…
The place I used to be last time =’)
I back to Kampar today…

The view during the way to Kampar reminds me a lot of things…
It was like just happened on yesterday; feel like I’m just new to here…

Reached the house and open the door,
No one inside (should be)
Only “mess” can describe the situation…

Taking all my stuffs into the car without wasting anytime…
The memories come in while walking around the house…
I miss you all =’)

Taking few photos before leave, it is the really last time stay and leave…
I will never ever to enter this house anymore…

The house was more empty than before =’(

The room were full of dolls last time...

Gonna leave the airport =(

Meet a friend before leaving Kampar,
She looks good now I think =)

After all of it, up to the car and back to my home sweet home…

Sitting in my home-sweet-home room, and started to think…
How are you now?

How about the smiley girl recently? Work well?
How about the big child recently? Does he still that childish?
How about the pretty girl recently? Does she still that crazy?
How about the purple lady recently? Does she buy a lot recently?
How about the emo boy recently? What animation he is watching now?
How about the rich boy recently? Work hard or not?
How about the ugly boy recently? Being handsome or not?

=’)

I miss you all a lot…
It was only 5 days in my home but I thought I had been living here for a month more…
Looking back on these few days, actually I have many things to do so…
I’m not lonely but just a feeling, a feeling to miss you all =’)

I miss the time when I’m telling a joke to you all…
And you all laugh =)
You all will keep talking and add in more joke after my joke,
I love the way we are =’)

No one listens to my joke and laugh like you all do recently…
I miss it so so much =’)

The next day after I back from Kampar last week…
Send a text to you all, haha, sorry for disturbing you guys…

I just hope to send the message again =’)

I miss the others also…
How were the others now?

The little girl was well as I see today =)
How was the beauty gang? I had long time didn’t “beauty” with them…
How was the stupid guy now?

Recently I’m focusing on my handmade stuffs,
No worries, still maintain the same size and weight if I not mistaken =’P
Everything was okay now I think =’)
Just a bit worry about my body size x’P

Oh, my lovely ex-housemates both of you forget to take the keychain btw…
I will return you when we meet up =’)

Anyway, I miss you all =’)
Hope you all are going well now…

I hope to see you all soon and tell the new joke I found to you all =’)

To my friends especially the fictions,


Cheer if you’re emo or tired now, life still move on…
Taking out the fiction album to have a look,
It may bring the feeling of “miss someone” to you
But yet I know it has the power to cheer you up… =’)
No matter how the world changes, there is someone else always supporting you…


And be preparing for the next gathering… =’)
For sure we will meet again…

Lastly,

Friends, IMY all =’)

Hope you all go well =’)

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