Difference

Posted by Aiden Chan on January 23, 2010 in Life 生活點滴, Orange's emotion,

Today just as usually what I done…
Wake up in the early morning…
Go out for my lovely breakfast with my friends koh and jun hao…^^

Afterward we go cyber café play online game…
Haha… xD

At the same time…
I log in to my blog…
Not this blog but is another blog… WRETCH… ^^

That is my first blog in my life…
I go through all the article which I wrote last time…

After I go through all of the article…
I realize that I have been changed compare to past time…

I miss all the previous time so much…
I miss my attitude when I used to solve problem…

I am thinking about why I will be like right now…
What had made my mindset change?

Is it the environment change my mindset?
Is it the people who around me change my mindset?

Or the time had changed everything?

Time is passing forward…
And I just let it passing…
I am wasting my time…

I feel stranger to myself…
I am no longer the past selves…
I am not strong and brave now compare to previous time…

My friends told me that I have something that other people do not have…
Am I really own it?

I hate present self

Inactive…
Admit defeat…
Lazy…

Keep up appearance…

I am turning a blind eye to all the thing which surround me…

Refer to all the things which I wrote last time…
I can know that I am innocent at that time…

Reality changed everything…
It also created present self…

Am I being more mature or cowardly?

I don’t know what the answer is…

Now I just want to get back innocence…
And get back the courage to face all the problem I have right now…

I lost in a world of self…
I can’t find a way out…

Gossip is come to me…
Attack me and hurt me…
Limit my actions…

When I can able to leave all of it…
And get back myself…

I embark on another journey to find myself…