Big Girls Don't Cry

Big Girls Don't Cry

Posted by Aiden Chan on October 31, 2010 in

I know that I had long time didn’t update my blog…
There are too much of things had happened in sudden…
And I can’t exactly take any reaction on it…

This post is written for two girls…

At first the girl I want to talk about is the one who near and close to me…
I’m pretty happy that you had chosen your own path again…
I mean you’re choosing the one you love…
Not saying that what you had chosen last time was wrong…
Like what I always tell you, choose the path by yourself…
Anything was just depending on how you think about it…

As long as you’re happy now… =)

You had grown up a lot and I can feel it truly…
And happy to saw what you had done for him…
And I really glad to help you in this kind of issues…
Just be yourself and done what you want to…

I won’t far away from you although him jealous on me… =P
But still that you need to stay with him more than stay with me…
I don’t want to get kill from someone else anymore… haha…

Hurts had been truly make by someone I know…
We can do nothing for it…
Time will done its job to make us release from it…

Time is the only solution for right now…

So cheer up and hope that you’re really release from it…

Feel like you’re getting far away from me…
I know that I’m not but what feeling tell me is like that…
May be I am too close with you before so that I would get this kind of feeling…

Anyway, I can entrust him to take care of you now…

I feel alone but I’m happy for it…
So don’t worry about me…
Someday I may get the same way just like the path you chosen now…
Maybe I will, whose know that?
Whose know what will happen in the future? xD

Be tough and cheer up my friend =)

In the other story, the girl I want to talk about is someone I care on but seldom contact with…
Long time never meet you and have a chat with you till the day we met up again….
I can really feel that, you had grown up and being more mature…

I believe in what you told me and what your expression tell so…
I had nothing left to say about it…
I know you’re getting deep hurt from it…
And you choose the mature way to face it…
And what you done at all were because of the only reason…
You still believe in him…

I know what happened right now…
But I can just do nothing for both of you…
Like what you said, nothing can do for it now…
Time is the only solution for your situation…

You try to not let the tears drop in front of me when you’re telling me the story…
I know you’re trying to be tough and tell me that you had blame on nobody…
At the same time you telling me you’re fine right now…
How sad I am when saw you in this situation… =(

I know that you are care so much that’s why you hurt so much too…
You hope to keep him for being a friend…
But what he done is only hurting you…

You believe in you so you do not blame on other…
You understand what the way he be used to so that you do not blame on him…

Can we do not be brave sometime?

Although being mature is good, but we just can like a child sometimes…
Not all the time being mature…

Both of you also are the one who I care and I dote on…
I really don’t know what I can do for both of you…
The only thing I can say to you is that…

Cheer up my friend…
Things had its own way and you may get in the right way soon…

God always challenging us…
Other always asks us to be tough when things come to us…
We need to be tougher all the time for facing the challenge…

Is it everyone forget that we’re just an ordinary human but not a wise man?
We still have our feeling and emotion…
We can’t be tough anymore when we are facing too much of hurts…

Can we just be cowardly sometime?

Well, I know it was a bit out of topic…
The purpose I want to tell through this post is so simple and easy to understand…
This is for all the people especially the two girls in my post…

Big girls don’t cry…

Life still moves forward…

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Tears

Tears

Posted by Aiden Chan on October 17, 2010 in

Long time didn’t update my blog…
The same reason makes me to do so…
A word to describe my life recently, “lazy”….

Not in mood recently…
Everything seems like gone worst at this time…
A word to describe the situation now, “sucks”…

Busy with my assignment and my life…
Thank you to my group members who accommodate me a lot…
Sorry for can’t done faster than other group…
I will try my best to do so…
Thank you to Liyana, Issac and Yy… =)

Many things had happened recently…
Ab lost her Laptop in our kampar house…
Pity on what had happened on her…
But thank you to god that she didn’t lost the most important things…
Cheer up… =)

Sometimes god likes to make jokes on us…
Things always happen at the wrong time with wrong person…
Curious coincidence always happens to us at anytime…

Are there too much of coincidence or we’re just too “lucky”?

It like a challenge to us which force us to overcome it…
We should overcome it when it comes to us…
It is not that easy like what we think…
It just likes a silent killer to us…
Killing us in a shadow way which we can’t see but feel it truly…

Tears do not drop without any reasons…
In the other way mean that something hurt had happened on a person…
And the person is really caring about it if not he or she won’t cry for it…

Tears only drop when you’re worth to it…

Mindset being empty and can’t think of anything…
No emotion showing on our face…
Tears drop down to the floor slowly…
Hugging something to get more sense of security…

Cry is the only way to release the feeling…

That’s day remind me a lot of the past…
Same situation had been happened like a drama, it shows again…
Same feeling come to my mind again…
The only different was the character in this drama…

Never thought that I will be get into such way again…
Never thought I will get involve to it again…
Never thought that I cannot help in anyway…

However everything had return to the past…
We still like last time and so on although there are still something not clear yet…

Congratulation to my friend, you had grow up a lot…
I can see it and feel it…
It is good to be stronger and do not get bully by other…
Be tough and be confidence…
You will get what you deserve… =)

Thank you for supporting me at that time…
Luckily you’re around me at that time…
You keep my strong will when thing happened to me…
You make me feel that I should be more tough compare to other…
It is a bit hard to me but I like to be this way...

Thank you for listening to my story and do not look at me with curious eyes…
Thank you =)

To my friends, sorry for trouble you all…
I will explain and tell you all next time…
I still believe in my belief…
The first condition to be friends with other is to be honest… =)
For me, I trust everyone who I tend to believe in…
Thank you for not blaming me…
I really cherish on you all…
Like one of my friends said before…
“I really don’t want to lost you guy, I will and want to be more friends with you all.”

To my friend, sorry for hit on you…
And it really pain I think…
Sorry for it...

To my friend, sorry for the too much annoying issue on you…
Sorry for all those trouble…
Most important is sorry for not trusting you at the beginning…
I had chosen what I want to belong to but my attitude is different with my behavior…
Sorry for this part although there is something not clear yet…
But I really feel sorry about it…
I know it is not necessary to say so but I just want to tell you…
Sorry for everything but thank you too… =)

It is not a want but a need for right now…
I don’t want to be regret on those issues anymore…
Do something rather that just waiting…

I am not being used to this way…
And I hate this way badly…

Thank you to my friends who concern on me…
I am fine now; I am just not in mood for the past few days…
Thank you for caring me… =)

It’s should not be a emo post…
I had learned from this lesson and I know what I should do now…

Tears do not drop without any reasons…

I don’t want to lose it anymore…

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Repay

Repay

Posted by Aiden Chan on October 03, 2010 in

Result already release on past few days…
Can’t sleep well for the whole night before that day…
Awaiting the result but yet also worry about it…

Tells myself that I can and get what I want…
My optimistic brings hope to me…
But it also brings worries to me…
It’s not the first time I get hurt because of my optimistic…

Wake up in the early morning…
Sign in facebook and have a look on it…
Saw my friends’ status and I can know that what they get from their result…
Most of them get a result which makes them happy…

I really feel pretty happy because of what my friends get…
And also I am worrying about my result…
Friends ask me about my result through msn and facebook…
I answer that I not check yet because I can’t accept the fact…

I was escaping the problem without my noticing it…

Break in break put, cold down myself…
No matter what the fact is…
I also need to face my worries…
This is because of what I get is what I give…
I should accept the truth…

Accompanied by my housemates, I check my result through internet…

Result showing on the screen when I sign in…
Tears started to drop from the eyes…
I scream it out…

I pass the entire subject… =)

CHAN CHEE MENG AELE3473 ENGLISH FOR MASS COMMUNICATION B- AHMC2414 PUBLIC RELATIONS STRATEGIES & TOOLS B- AHMC2444 PUBLIC SPEAKING B AHMC2843 BASIC PHOTOGRAPHY A AHMC3084 COMMUNICATION LAW B- GPA : 3.0138 CGPA : 2.7321 Credit Hours Earned : 18.0

I feel pretty happy because of this…
Never thought that I can get a result like this…
Although my English was lagged behind but I still satisfy with it…

Close the door…
Control my tear to do not let it drop down…
Raise up my head, worry tear will drop down…
I really feel pretty happy because of it…

The same feeling come to my mind…
It like last time what PuiPui and Liyana told me after the event…

No stress anymore and finally I archive my mission…

Stress gone immediacy…

Tears come along but I stop it…
Because I still need to attend class later…
I don’t want let other look a weird face…

Think back on my result…
It was the better result I get in this whole year…
You may feel nothing at all…
But it was meaningful to me…

I am not showing off to anymore…
And I just wrote down my feeling…

I call my family as fast as I can after back from the class…
Call my mother and text my sister…

They call me back and chat with me…

Feel happier after hear to their voice…
Praise received from them was extra meaningful to me…
I try to conceal my feeling and my emotion when chat with them…

I had no let them down this time…
I really happy because of this…
I had let them down last time but this time I done it…

Finished chat with them through phone…
Tears started drop from my eyes…
I can’t control it anymore…

Tears drop not because of get hurt…
It just too happy till can’t express out the feeling….

Never waste on what I done before…
I get what I should get now…

The feeling right now was good and I hope it can continue till the end…
Never thought that I can get such result like this…
It was not that good I know compare to others…

At lease I am happy with it then enough…
I never look down other because of my result…
I just happy on what I get no other mean…

Something what to tell my friends…
Don’t be sad on what you get right now…
This time bad not mean that next time will be the same…
I had been this way before…
I know it was hurt but please don’t over…
Good luck and cheer… =)

New semester was started, I hope I can keep it up till the end…

I have my own belief…
I believe in what we get is what we give…
What you do you need to pay for…
I believe in this…

Can’t stop my tears and can’t cold down my mind…
I still in the emotion and can’t out from it yet…

Anywhere just let it be…
I had long time never be this way…
Just unbridled myself for a while like this…

Lastly I just want to say that…

God will repay your labour well…

I had no let them down…

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